Guilty Desire

— Embarrassing wishes

One of the few photos I like of the ones my husband took, although my smile looks totally forced.

Guilty pleasures are proudly revealed while guilty desires are not. Like the desire to be rich--that's something people are embarrassed letting others know about.

Sometimes I wish I had one of those boyfriend photographers who can take flattering pictures of me. When I ask my husband to take my photo, he considers any random snap to look good. Whether I'm awkwardly moving my limbs or my lazy eye is totally being lazy...he finds me flattering in all the photos he takes. How is this possible? I'm not looking svelte or glamorous!

Although....I'm very happy he sees things this way.

Perhaps I am cured of my guilty desire.

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